Secret #1

I'm disgusted with who I am.

I've been working on Ana on and off for a little while now.
I had done it for a month or so, and at first I didn't notice any change, but once I went back to my old eating/drinking habits I began to feel more grotesque than I'd ever felt. I don't dare tell people I feel the way I do, because all they go off about is how I'm not what I say I am. Of course they'd say that, they're all running around in their size 6 skinny jeans, they have no reason to worry about themselves, as long as they're happy they don't want to deal with anyone 'bringing them down', so they force their false beliefs on my fatass. Well I'm done falling for it. I've been following a very helpful pro Ana blog and now that I'm back on it I'm hoping to see results soon.
I'm on Week # 1. Wish me luck sweethearts<3